The Journey Begins
"Don't wait for the how." — Iyanla Vanzant
Not sure where to even start but I feel like this month is a new start to my life. There was no event that occurred, just a voice from within/my spirit guides/God/The Universe - whatever you would like to call it, led me to know what I really want & what would make me really happy. I feel like I've been searching for a life-time & finally woke up a few days ago knowing what my soul needs to do. I need/want/am destined to sail around the world! It's actually kind of scary to write these words but I am letting go of doubt & trying to have faith. This came to me on Friday. I guess there were a lot of things leading up to it. A lot of clues in the last year or two. -Maybe even throughout my whole life. But on Friday, May 31st, 2019 it just came to me so clearly. I can't even describe the happiness I felt when I knew that I am supposed to sail around the world.
I was definitely on a high. Part of me was like, "Kendall, you've gotten so excited about so many things in your life only to quit or let them go!". But this felt different. I also felt that the Universe was telling me that I just need to set my mind on this dream & that everything will be laid out eventually to get me there. I'm sure God has been telling me this for a while now but this was the first time I actually believed it. All my other dreams have lacked this. I've always been scared at how I'm going to achieve something when I'm half way there. I give up because things aren't going the way that I picture them in my head. 3 days ago though, I knew I had to let go of my need to know everything at the moment & trust that the Universe will take care of that as long as I let go enough for it to guide me.
What reinforced this was when, on Saturday, I was listening to Oprah's Audiobook, "The Path Made Clear". She was interviewing a woman named, Iyanla Vanzant who said, "Don't wait for the how.". This was an OMG moment! This is what I've been lacking for so many years. I have absolutely no idea how I'm going to sail around the world but I'm going to believe that I will get there. Now that it's been a few days it does feel scary writing this down but I'm going to work through the fear & persevere.
I have this voice in the back of my mind saying, "You've never been able to make anything big happen! How the hell are you going to make this happen?!". All I can say back is, "I don't know. But I know this is what I want. I will get there. I just need to focus on my dream. I just need to take baby steps each day. -Maybe somedays bigger steps. I just need to trust God & my spirit guides will lead me there if I listen.
I need to know that there might be setbacks but I can learn & move on from them.". So my plan is that in 5 years, 2024, my husband & I will be setting off on a catamaran to explore this beautiful world!
